FULL

It occurred to me today, after feeling full after a full day of teaching....where fullness really comes from.

What is it really to be fulfilled?
It's space created in our hearts and our lives we fill with that which means the most to us. 

 I know friends of mine who are full with love in their homes, lil' kiddies running around, and otherwise complete and total chaos.  Others are completely full with accomplishment, from running a business that leaves them feeling successful career-wise, with a line of clients waiting to hear back from them, and a to-do list that only gets longer and longer and longer.

Today, I realized what fulfills me is sharing this gift of Yoga and Ayurveda.
And honestly....sometimes I feel like a fraud.  Like....what am I talking about?  Where did I learn this?  And very honestly, the infamous....how the hell do I know THAT?  Never mind why anyone on this planet is really listening to me.

My Ayurveda trainees were asking today how to know how to approach or "handle" certain clients. The realizations you come to through self examination are pretty intense ones, and are not always realizations we're game to own up to.  It was a sweet question really and one that's answer is purely one of experience.

But that question....that one sweetly naive question is the one that made me realize where I've been and what I've become.  It made me walk away from class today feeling as full as I can remember.

THIS is why I wanted to do what I do.  THIS is why I've spent the gazillions (okay...that's an exaggeration.  But I've invested a lot) of bucks in the trainings I've placed myself in.  THIS is reason I know anything, and also the reason students are willing to listen.  THIS is why students are asking me the tough questions.  THIS is the reason I am even surrounded by students.

It also occurred to me that this fullness is present most when the belief in myself is present. 
More confidence and less fear.  
More of being humble, and less of my ego.  
More of working from the heart, than coming from any place else.

It's like igniting a spark, all on your own. 

Love, love, LOVE 

RESTLESS

Heartache in the depths of you...
Something bigger, something different
Brilliant, Fulfilling, Big...

Bigness that's ready to burst
Right from the heart of you.
Something truer, something that's more....you.

You don't know what it is yet
You're still feeling out it's qualities
...and what it's capable of.

It's capable of making you.
Leading you to the truest version of you.
It leads you to the colors of your soul..
The rhythm of your heart.

Its okay to not know it fully yet yet.
As long as you're feeling it fully.
And allowing it unconditionally.

Its human.  Its real.
Its unknown.