DAYDREAMS

...without agenda and without logic....it's time to let my mind wander.

I close my eyes and my heart leaps down this path.
Vast, unknown to where it'll lead...
Yet I still go.

So unlike life, and unlike me.
I let it all go.  All of it...
Shredding layer upon layer of who I need to be....
And I feel.
Warmth.
Love.

Fearlessly I allow this embrace, and the embrace of another.
Caution isn't here, passion is.
Open heart space, and a mind that knows only the heart.
This is endless.
This is what could be....
If I allow myself,
To daydream,
With eyes,
Wide.
Open.


One man's daydreaming is another man's day. ~Grey Livingston

TOLERANCE

January and thus far February...have been a big blur of..blurry.

It seems as though after I wound down from the holidays...after an amazing week away from reality in the tropics....my body decided to up and all out REVOLT!

Thanks to my Mama's side of the family ( HI MOM!)  I'm prone to getting kidney stones, and kidney infections.  In addition, I found out my intolerance for gluten is really...intolerant.  AND on top of that, throw in some good ol' fashion PMS to the mix.

I felt like a mess, for about three weeks.  There were days I just camped out on the couch just for lack of being able to do anything but.  The fun part about it, was getting to know the various parts of my body up close and intimately.

I started juicing a whole lot more once I got home in January, and literally bonded with my kitchen.  I didn't want to resort to all kinds of processed foods or ordering out to nourish my non-glutinous bod....I wanted to learn how to feed it.  How to prepare food, and prepare my body, for what the days/weeks hold.  I wanted to learn about cravings and what my body REALLY needs...and I wanted to be sure I didn't give in to the cravings.

In the meantime...I've decided to bring the Yamas and Niyamas into my teachings.  My students are SO ready for it!

Yesterday evening with Ahimsa (non-harming) woven into our practice, and while I read Patanjali's wise words...I came across this in 2.35...
"I am still trying.  I am still not that perfect."

..and it immediately brought me back to a theme that always seems to ring true....
"We're never not changing."

The truth is there's no golden rule saying perfection is in the cards for us.  We can strive for it, but our path will change, throwing us for a loop, but in reality allowing us to get to know ourselves again.  

I like to the think of the self, or imagine the self...the conscious self....as layers.  Sometimes they shift, other times they melt into one another changing form...either way, ya dive in.  Whether you stay there stuck in the layers, or you take a more exploratory mentality....the layers are always there.  And they're always shifting.

I'm thinking the point here is....change is okay if you let it be okay.  Sure you can embrace change....but...what about embracing yourself?  Getting to know yourself, and most of all....forgiving yourself for all our lack of perfection?

Because we'll change again.  And we can be resistant to it (read:  resistant to ourselves), or we can get to know what we just don't know yet.